A lot has happened all of a sudden here and it is kinda wierd .. I know I have always been a creature of change but normally I am the one instigating the change .. this time I seem to have no control over it... well to some extent anyway.
Two of the guys in the office that have been here for my entire phd are leaving/have left, both of whome I get on with so well. It certainly has changed the way I view coming to school now .. I certainly don't look forward to it as much as I used to. It is a little wierd though .. I haven't really know these guys for that long but they are both fucking cool and of everyone in the office I guess they were the ones I actually used to hang out with after work. Andy is especially missed because now I have the messiest desk in the office .. there used to something oddly comferting about looking over at his messy fungus laden desk ..though on the other hand I have been feeling alot heathlier since he left...

Amber is also leaving soon .. which is gonna be kinda wierd .. she has become a bit of a fixture in our house adding a certain girly though slightly unkempt charm to the house. Now we run the risk of being invaded by role players and other freaks..

The other thing bothering me right now is I think I have broken up with my girlfriend ... I suppose there is no right time to do these things and in some ways I kinda feel like I did it for bad reasons.
U may ask why it is only that I think we have broken up well there has been no finality about it, the way it was left was She said she was only able to offer x in the relationship .. I said I wanted y .. she said she couldn't offer me y .. I said well let's go out and see what happens .. if it doesn't go well we call it quits and be mates .. she said okay .. then on the day feigns illness. Now I have reliably informed that this means " I don't need you or want you" .. which is fair enough .. I guess I would have at lest like to end it with a little bit of fun ( and am not talking about a good bye shag here). The wierdest part I think for me is on the day we talked about above we talked fro another hour or so about nothing .. prob one of our best conversations. I think I was more myself then then I had been in a while.

anyway cest la vie as they say.. or something like that .. god I cann't wait for firefox to have an embedded spell checker.

till next time true believers. ( I think I am regressing to my comic book geek days as a defence mechanism)

Most of u know I spell for shit and my grammer isn't the best in the world. I read lot and I love to watch discourse and social commentery but alas this has not effected my ability to write much, but I cann't help feel that if I had an editor I would actually be able to write well. I was looking at some of the emails and entries I have sent/put here ..and sometimes .. not that often .. but sometimes I amaze myself. They are witty, interesting, well thought out but mostly illegible due to spelling and grammer.

I guess I am never gonna be a best seller author but it is nice to know there are people out there who read my inane rants.

So I have now got Film four .. so I get a number of free films everyday which is nice .. most of em are actually relativly good. Right now though I am sitting through the congo .. a michel criton book.. it is is the worst film I have ever seen ..mared more by the terrible russian accent that Tim Curry puts on.

I think I have a little sado masachistic in me to continue irrespective to watch it.

So it is rare I get a chance to watch crappy day time tv.. I am not a fan but I am at home working and it is nice as background but I have to ask .. for the love god Oprah .. I know ur great .. you have done great thing fro black celeb .. you have lost loads a of wieght and look good fro your age .. you infulence millions of people but what the fuck is up with your hair ?

Is there some kinda wierd bird that nests in there ?

To all you losers out there who are stating that the film was terrible ... or that the money it made shows how internet hype is just hype... what is wrong with you all.

Lets clear up somethings .. SoaP is not a good movie .. it was never a good movie and never will be a good movie. The dialoge is terrible.. the cinimatography is awful beyond belif and the snakes themselves are so CG that u cannot take it seriously. This is the charm that is SoaP. If u see this movie with any inclination that u will enjoy it on any other level than as witness to blind idiocy then u will hate it. At the very core of this film (from conseption) it has been a test to how stupid hollywood is. We, the internet, have made this film. With our commentary, our humor and our morbid need to witness the idiotic, we have shaped this film into a culture. In 5 years time we will watch it and laugh at it in same way we still love knight rider or the A-team.

Saop has been this past year's "All your base" and will always be a laugh to those of us who lived through it but if u are only hearing about it for the first time from me, forget it. I cann't like itand you will never understand it. In conclusion I wanna just say to that idiot "cobra starship" and his idiot emo song. I love you man .. that song completed the full cheese effect. I donno if u ment to .. I hope and pray u wrote that song with out it being serious becaue if you were ... dude u suck balls. U, ur family, ur friends and those other twits in the video all suck great fat sweaty hairy balls.

So I have finally added an enrty on my NY trip and stuck a quick bit on York (see side bar). Not a lot to say really. Week end was alright .. chilled. Highlight was going out to Otley chevin .. lovely pub out there, had a carvery on and man it was ..hmm.hmm.. good. Not a bad view up there too. You can see for your self here
though u can see me panoramic photo skills are less the perfect .. you get the general idea though.
I quit from viva cuba last week so I have 2 more shifts to work out . Got offered a website which I will do and I will keep teaching next year ..also lego should be starting soon. Life is good ..shame I hate my phd.
meh.

I don't want to sound 1984 but ..what the hell is going on in england now.. in fact every where ... wiretaps being made constitutional ... no hand luggage on planes .. fat tax. The world is going insane.

Most of you know I have been very vocal about my stance again what we are doing to smokers. I hate that you can exclude some one.. to the point of almost depriving them of their right to shelter just cos the want to have a ciggerette, but I am not here to argue my point on that front now .. I am here to say now we have managed to all but outlaw smokers our attention is turning to the fat. Dammit people.. what next .. prohibition again? The handcapped? people with ADHD? and with all this crap will next be the religious? We are supposed to be in a country where freedom is paramount .. where the choices you make are your own and the mistakes are yours to sort out. I don't want other people deciding what is good for me.. at lest not people that don't know me.

I think the problem is as a people in the western world we have become so insular .. I have lived in the same house for 4 years .. I don't actually know my nieghbours name. How shit is that? The government should protect our freedom and our community should protect our morality and perhaps our mortality. You are resposible for those around you. You don't want your friends to die of lung cancer .. help them quit smoking instead of making smoking illegal and causing them to die of exposure. Your friend is fat, talk to them .. help them lose weight if they want to .. teeach them how to make good low fat food .. don't get the gverment to tax them probebly making them more misrable as a result.

Today I was amazed at the reaction of the Ryan air guys to the stupid terrorist things that are happening here in england.They basically said all the precautions that are being taken are unnessary and useless. Terrorists are not going to be travelling with little children going to tenarif. This country is struck stupid with fear .. anyone says anything about terrorism and suddenly it is okay to lock up people .. shoot people .. close airports and generally make life painful for anybody and everybody.

People stand up and say something for the love of god!!

On a lighter note I found this which I think is cool

well UK in fact but I like that song so. Things have been alright in the land of anil for a few weeks. I love New York and being @ home always makes me happy. I don't have to do much but I did enjoy my self. At some point I will put up a static page on my exploties but going home is never exciting .. it is more about relaxing and feeling comfertable again. It worked of course .. I was happy at home and I love seeing my sister and mother even my step dad has become a pleasent feture in my little trips. The problem is the home sickness.
Whenever I come back from these little trips the homesickness kicks in like hell. Mostly I want to just crawl up into a ball, hide out in my room and phone home 4 times a day. This time I thought it would be a little different, as u know I am seeing some one and I thought maybe this would help. I was hoping I would have somebody I wanted to see here badly enough to not miss home, turns otu this isn't the case. Turns out my girlfriend is going through some things and requires some care and attention on my behalf. So in the words of a song from Avenue Q

It sucks to be me